I have been off for the past few days.  Not as in off work but rather just kind of out of my normal flow.  I think a variety of forces were working together in this conspiracy.  I pulled a hamstring in my martial arts class on Monday, this prevented me from running for a couple of days.  So I was off my routine.  Then at my class I have been getting information from different people that is not all together consistent, or correct.  So I was building up some stress on to how to best deal with this situation.   My work has been a bit more intense lately and that has also added to my flow being a bit stifled.  At heart, I am a problem solver.  I am not the sort of person you come to if you just want someone to listen.
So I looked at the issues and mostly they are stemming from my martial arts training.  I feel a bit off, nothing wrong with that on occasion.  There are ebbs and flows in all aspects of life.  This is just a bit of an ebb.  However, what to do about the contradiction in training?  Can be problem really.  I think I will respectfully thank the person for any input and weigh it against what I know.  Of course, I will do things their way while I am training with them for that time period.  The bottom line, I train for self defense purposes, not to look pretty.  I can evaluate information pretty well in this realm.  So I won't stress the inconsistencies, I will just take the information weigh it and then throw out what is not useful to the main goal, self defense.  I may look stupid to those who keep telling me the same thing but I am beyond caring too much about those sorts of things.  I also don't care much about belts.  So the big problem is solved.  I will break it down into a flow chart in my mind.
    1.  Does it work/ is it effective? Y/N  if N dump if Y keep
As to work, the stress generated is a bit out of my control.  Yet, we are in control of how much we allow things to have an impact on us.  I hadn't run since Monday, that was part of the problem.  I ran today and was able to melt off some stress and for the first time since Monday I felt fine.  So the problem with work is the problem we all face, deadlines, work flow, and balancing life outside of work.  I just need to stop and do some exercise when I feel things building up a bit.  OK, problem solved.
Right now I feel 150%  better than I did on Tuesday.  Sometimes we get in a funk, we just have to realize we are there and why we are there.  After that cleaning the thing up usually isn't too tough.


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I hope you feel better soon. Hang in there!
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